shouldn't have known your name

I once had gigantic crushes on Billy Martin, and Robert Pattinson. That's all. Those crushes are more than just, 'Oh you're hot'. It's a whole lot like 'Oh you are seriously attractive hmm I guess I'm going to start researching you. Shit you have such orgasmic accent. Kay I'm going to follow you on Twitter and I'm going to tweet you. *chilling at the sofa later in the evening and imagining scenarios of him and I*. Shit he has to be mine. I'm going to look at more of his photos now...' And then suddenly realized that he's way out of your reach because he's THIS and you just this. And then everything is just so painful because you know, unrequited lust. Yeah that is the kind of crush I encountered only two times in the past 17 years. And it takes me a long time to completely get over it.

And I think the 3rd one is coming, maybe, hopefully not. But it's Yuri Pleskun

Founded him on Tumblr yesterday but I didn't know his name, you have no idea how disappointed I was. But today, it was like God had heard me. I was on Tumblr this afternoon and another picture of him appeared at my dash and this time, his name was there! So jackpot. But I should have know better, I shouldn't have known his name 'cause it's so painful, lusting for someone who doesn't know your existence. I just can't help it, it even hurts when I look at his photos what the flying fuck.

Model. 21. Grew up in Bronx. Was in CK One. Was shot for Marc by Marc's fall 2009. Dropped out from high school and had problems with the polices. Badass, I like.