drowning in this weirdly painful joy

I do not know where to begin. At some point, someone you know will make your heart burned, flushed and all those other things you thought it would never happen.One day you'll go all the way YOLO and do all those things that you never thought you would, and you will giggle all the way and remember every tiny detail of it cause you think that it might help you feel better when you're dying or your partner in crime dies one day. You will try to think of doing something more extreme cause you want to have something to remember when there's nothing else in the world worth a room in your memory. Better yet, someday you'll be tossing and turning in bed, sweating and finding it excruciating hard to sleep because finally, your dreams became reality.